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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 17:26

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

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She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Was to survive, this bastard.

What should I do to get over a relationship?

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Why don't I want to talk to my girlfriend when she loves me a lot? I feel bored.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And i lived it daily.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

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But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

This is how, and why children get BPD.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Why can’t my wife just accept the fact that I’m going to cheat?

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Ive learnt so much.

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And who doesn’t know suffering?

But, we were locked up after school.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

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Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

We all went to grammer schools

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

How do I stop having work crushes because I only keep getting disappointed almost every day as I keep seeing they don’t like me back and won’t ever ask me out?

I waited trembling.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

What is your worst experience in life?

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

(And it was in our own minds.)

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Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

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I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

What do you wear when you are alone at home?

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

We were not on the streets..

She wouldn,t have been !

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

She found it foreign!.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I think the readers, may guess!

He resisted the act ,that day.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

My family never makes their pension either.

Put me off passion for life!!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

So whats the point in blame.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Comes on , in middle age.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

What did i know ?

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

When she asked me how she looked .

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

So, i spoilt her more .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Would this be the day?

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Especially a lifetime of it.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

As i do to all so called friends.?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I was 9 years of age.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

She loved him until the end.

Who then, do I blame.?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

She was in good health!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I will be 64.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

But ive been too sick for many years..

My life is so biszare .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I was very sick at this time too.

I was seconnd youngest,

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

One cannot live in the past .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

This is soul school!.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I could never make a relationship work though!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I couldn’t, believe it.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I said to her

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Im still living with it.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

All the time i was locked up.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I was scared of men, in general

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

It was going to be , some day.

But it wasn’t much.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I have no regrets .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I don,t even have a pension.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

She married twice! .

He knew the spot.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I write beautiful poetry .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .